Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Passing time

Time is a great healer. ????????????????. I wish I understood what that meant. Do events seem less real after time? Do they seem less important? Or do our memories just fade? Since my last posting I have moved from home, I have started a new job and a new life, far away from the places that remind me of him. The trouble with memories is that you can not run form them. You can go to the other side of the world and they will still be with you. You can sell all your belongings, demolish everything that reminds you of the past except those memories.

That’s how I feel. The place has changed but the memories stay the same.

It’s not all bad though. I have come to the realization that these experiences have made me how I am. That’s not all a bad thing. I have grown stronger through everything. I suppose that everyone has moments of doubt and darkness but its how you deal with them that counts. The memories I doubt will ever fade but they will mine and that is who I am. People can move in and out of my life but I am always me. Acceptance of the past or myself is not coming easy but I’ll get there.